I want to write an honest blog about me. Most of you who follow me get a pretty good understanding of how I roll. I swear, I tell it how it is and I am done with the bullshit of trying to please others. I did that for so long, holding my breath, pushing all the shit I really wanted to say way down because I thought I wasn’t good enough and I worried too much about what other people’s opinions of me would be.
Well, let me just say this. I have come too fucking far on my own personal journey to give a flying fuck about that now! It has taken years of pain, hard work, and self discovery to finally realise that what you think of me, has nothing to do with me! Read that again...... The world we live in today is full of people so caught up their own bullshit that they are so afraid to be the person they truly want to be and that is sad! And…. It used to be me. Everyone will always have an opinion and that’s great. As long as you understand that not everyone needs to know it. And…….opinions…….morals………they change as you grow.
We all have regrets. Shit, I’ve done some stuff I really wish I didn’t do. I have made many seriously fucked up decisions in life. Do I regret them? Once upon a time I did, however I absolutely do not now because they shaped me into the person I am today. We can NEVER EVER take back the past. You can stew over it, cry over it, beat yourself up over it, yet, you still cannot take it back no matter how hard you try. So the best thing to do is - use it to your advantage. Grow from it, learn the fucking hard way, because if life was easy, that would be a cop out.
Look back at all the shitty things you did. The ones that you REALLY regret. Look at them with a different perspective. An open mind, an open heart. What were they trying to show you? Did you learn the lesson or did you repeat it? Are you going to blame others for it, or are you going to go deeper and hold yourself accountable? Because you know what you should be doing don’t you? Hold yourself accountable! You always have a choice in EVERY situation. How you react, how you deal with it, how you move on from it and how you learn and grow from it.
Don’t blame others. EVER! This took me a LONG time to realise. It’s so easy to blame someone else, even if they fucked up. However when you understand the impact of the situation, no matter how bad it was, when you can really go deep into it, you will realise that in everything there is always something good that comes from it.
Having being through abuse, trauma, abandonment, hatred, self abuse and so on - plus a shit ton of healing, I get it. I’m not saying that you don’t have the right to feel the pain, you absolutely do. All I am trying to make you understand is what you choose to do with it, is up to you. When you surrender, the light comes through. xoxo
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